Shocker: Social Media is addictive.
Breaking news, right? We all know it, it’s that eye-roll-moment when someone tells you about the bad side effects digital devices have and still, we’re not the ones effected by it. The way we use our phones is normal. Other people might have these problems, but I don’t.
Exactly, that’s what I thought too. Then I found myself laying on the sofa on December 23rd, watching some series in the TV, frantically checking my phone for… Well, for what actually? I’d heard about people deleting social media off their phones for the holiday period, but I knew that wasn’t for me. Re-downloading would be too easy. My mind was scattered and when I finally figured out that it was due to all these things I saw on various apps, all the messages I answered, all the things I wanted to do, I realized that I needed a time out.
After I posted my blogpost on the 24th, I turned my phone and laptop off completely and put them in a drawer, underneath a sweater, so I wouldn’t even see them. The plan was to leave it there until the 27th around noon, but once that time rolled around, I wasn’t ready to look down at that metal thing yet, which is why I extended my abstinence for another day. Of course, I was excited to get the freedom of talking to anyone at any time back, but I’ve also learned a lot about my behavior. Here’s what I got:
I got used to scrolling away my emotions. This is the main thing I’ve realized. When I’m anxious/sad/confused/lonely, I start looking at my phone, scrolling through social media. There are new things happening all the time, which distracts me to the point where I forget about my feelings. That’s cool and all, until you learn to handle all your emotions that way. Scrolling will only push them away, suppress them, but you’re not dealing with them properly. I’ve learned that the only way out is through.
I’m a control freak. Not in the sense that I have the urge to control this whole planet, but I do like to be in charge of plans that involve my personal life. That became obvious when I asked my brother to call our dad and ask him something and then wanted to ask him every five seconds, if he’d already called. I’m the type of person that thinks “If you want something done, you better do it yourself.”. I already let go of a big part of my perfectionism, but apparently, a part of it is still very alive.
I don’t owe anything to anyone. Often times I check my phone because I know, that that certain person had a job interview and wanted to tell me how it went afterwards. The next person went on a date and the third one simply likes to reach out around that time of day. But I don’t need to be reachable unless I want to be. The message is still going to be there an hour later. You can’t pour from an empty cup. In order to be there for others, you have to be there for yourself first.
Despite all the things I’ve mentioned above, I am grateful to live in a time where the whole world is accessible by just a few clicks. The fact that I can be in touch with all my friends, all over the place fills me with happiness. It’s all about moderation. I enjoy using my phone and social media as long as I’m using it consciously and am not totally absorbed by it. Life is in the things you can touch, feel, taste, smell, hear, see. It’s the whole 4D experience. Phones, social media apps are just tools to share that experience. Go out today and make use of those senses you were gifted.